A Little Surgery

So, all of a sudden, over the last 6 months, I have started to fall apart. 
I find myself, on the cusp of turning 40, and instead of "getting it all together", as planned, I'm falling apart.

Just when I was settled in and comfortable with a weight loss plan, and lost 9lbs in 3 weeks, WHAM out came my appendix and gallbladder, at the same time. Ugh.  What a shock that was.  I really just assumed it was another diverticulitis flare up but, oh no, not that simple!  
 
I truly hope this is the last of any crazy surprise medical issues, for a while any way.  And I know this is nothing, compared to so many burdens of many others.  And really it's not the medical stuff.  I'll get over that and even feel better when than I did.  It just feels like another set back.  Another kick in the gut.  I want, so badly, for our lives to a little easier.  Have a little more fun.  Have a nice place to live and for our kids to call home.  I just don't know what more I can do.

Hopefully what I won't have to do, is have any more internal organs removed!

Uncertain Times

I have worked, for the same company, since 1997.  Things are really shaky right now.  I was so fortunate, to not have to worry about my job, back when the economy tanked.  We really didn't notice it at all, in my department.  But now it's different.  And scary.  The thought of loosing my job terrifies me.  What would my family do?  My income is vital.  How would we have insurance? Obamacare - that's scary on its own.

I'm feeling so troubled right now.  My soul is weary and scared.  I want so badly to just be at peace with my life.  But I'm not.  I'm struggling. Bad.  I'm struggling to find happiness.  I'm struggling to just enjoy my family.  Ugh.  It's stressful.

I'm praying for some really big things right now.  I desperately need some peace.  And clarity.  If you read this, will say a little prayer for me?  God knows.