A Little Surgery

So, all of a sudden, over the last 6 months, I have started to fall apart. 
I find myself, on the cusp of turning 40, and instead of "getting it all together", as planned, I'm falling apart.

Just when I was settled in and comfortable with a weight loss plan, and lost 9lbs in 3 weeks, WHAM out came my appendix and gallbladder, at the same time. Ugh.  What a shock that was.  I really just assumed it was another diverticulitis flare up but, oh no, not that simple!  
 
I truly hope this is the last of any crazy surprise medical issues, for a while any way.  And I know this is nothing, compared to so many burdens of many others.  And really it's not the medical stuff.  I'll get over that and even feel better when than I did.  It just feels like another set back.  Another kick in the gut.  I want, so badly, for our lives to a little easier.  Have a little more fun.  Have a nice place to live and for our kids to call home.  I just don't know what more I can do.

Hopefully what I won't have to do, is have any more internal organs removed!

Uncertain Times

I have worked, for the same company, since 1997.  Things are really shaky right now.  I was so fortunate, to not have to worry about my job, back when the economy tanked.  We really didn't notice it at all, in my department.  But now it's different.  And scary.  The thought of loosing my job terrifies me.  What would my family do?  My income is vital.  How would we have insurance? Obamacare - that's scary on its own.

I'm feeling so troubled right now.  My soul is weary and scared.  I want so badly to just be at peace with my life.  But I'm not.  I'm struggling. Bad.  I'm struggling to find happiness.  I'm struggling to just enjoy my family.  Ugh.  It's stressful.

I'm praying for some really big things right now.  I desperately need some peace.  And clarity.  If you read this, will say a little prayer for me?  God knows.

Crazy December Weather

It's December 21st and it's 74 degrees outside!  I just had to turn the AC on in the house.  We are predicted to have severe storms, possibly tornadoes, this evening and into tomorrow.  This kind of weather makes me so nervous.  Being from the South, we are no strangers to just exactly the kind of damage a tornado can do.  I pray that all in the storms path will be safe! 

It makes it hard to do Christmas type activities when it's 75 degrees out too!  If I weren't so pasty white, I would put on shorts.  But I'll spare anyone that may have to look at me today.

Are you in the paths of severe storms today?

A year... Really

Oh wow, I can't believe it has been almost a year since I posted.  I honestly didn't think it had been that long!  This year has truly flown by. I really do want to start putting down my thoughts here.  It's just for me anyway. 
 
I turned 39 a month ago. I'm working on a 40 before 40 list of things I would like to do over the year.  Nothing crazy.  Just random things.  I'll post it when I'm finished and then I can keep up with I have actually done.  Could be fun.
 
More to come.  Soon.

Have You Read...

If  you read this will you leave me a comment?  I have some more ideas I would like to blog about but I wonder if there is anyone reading.  Thanks and have a Blessed New Year!

I'm Doing It!

Going to the gym.  For the first time, in well, forever really.  I've NEVER belonged to a gym.  But tonight, while it's raining and cold outside, and my house is literally a disaster, I am going to the gym.  With my youngests' Ipod since I've the lost the cord to mine, a bottle of water and FEAR!

I really just like to walk, at a track, around my neighbor hood etc...  So this time I'll be on a treadmill, if I can get it to work. I'm going alone, so no one to talk too, hence the Ipod!  Maybe I'll try a bike and an elliptical.  Surely to the Lord I can make one of them work.

30 minutes.  That's all I am holding myself too tonight.  If I can do that, today, I will feel accomplished :)  I actually plan to go all weekend.   And maybe twice but probably only once during the week.  

How do you fit it all in?  I work outside the home, commute for about an hour each way, work 10 hr days but I know I'm not alone.   So tell me : How do you do it??

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